Silence is not bliss

I was talking to my friend Christina today about how it had been a while since I'd seen her online and how there are friends that you can not talk to for months or years and still know that they care about you. I say that because I have several friends that I dont see on any kind of regular basis but still love very much and know that the next time I call or they call, we'll pick right up where we left off how ever many weeks or months it's been ago. And then there is the flip side. Not to say that there are friends that you keep in touch with that you dont care about but more to say that there are friends that you for whatever reason DO happen to talk to regularly or nearly regularly. Why is it that I freak out when one those friends doesn't call or write in a few days or weeks? I suppose I know the answer to that question but dont want to deal with it. I can feel when things aren't quite right between me and some of my friends and it's tough. This was a nice week, I heard from two people that I didn't expect to and it made me smile. Of course to bring balance to the universe, I didn't hear from someone that I shouldnt' but expected I might at least hear a hello from today and it made me sad.

That brings me back full circle to reflecting on friends and how you just know that somewhere out there, they're still thinking about you with fond memories till the next time you speak. At least that is usually the case.