Lost post (Hiding in the closet)

I thought I'd lost this post but apparently I posted it to another blog..lol, this was originally posted on Oct 1

Ok, that sounds kinda funny doesn't it, but I'm not talking about sexual orientation. That's a whole other story but more just that I feel like a kid that's playing hide and go seek with friends or his parents. You remember when you were a kid and you would hide in the closet and see if your parents would find you. Well, thats sorta how I feel since I republished my original blog without telling anyone. I didn't even tell T though I'm sure she'll be the first to find me.

It's back to The God Awful Truth and I can't promise that I'll tell all because there are parts of my life that I know people wont understand and maybe I'm not so much about sharing everything as I would like to think. The problem is that I do care what people think of me a lot. I do consider myself to be a good person but I feel like my sexual desires and other issues make me a bad person. That's years of strict christian upbringing and guilt talking there. Between that and some of the things in my childhood, I am at the point where I have difficulty showing emotion sometimes with those I love the most and of course there can also be bedroom issues. I'm still working thru all of these but I know that in the end I'll be ok because my friend is still here with me.

So now the only thing I wonder is how long I'll stay semi-anonymous.