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just kidding.

I've just realized that I've only been home one week so far this year. Yep, I'm on the road again, this time in Colorado for a week working as usual. I never really cared too much about the travel when I was single or even when Syren and I were first dating because we lived in separate states anyways. It's definitely a bit different now being married and having a little one at home that's growing up and doing new things every day. I still like to see the country somewhat but not as much as before but with my job in particular, travel is definitely a part of my daily life.

This is going to be a good week. It's already much better than when I made my last post.

The baby crawled a couple of steps and I was there to see it first.

Syren and I have talked out some issues that were causing us pain and I've let go somewhat on my driving desire to be approved by all.

Having met out here in the world wide web has been both a blessing and a curse. I'm sure some of the other couples that have blossomed recently will attest if not now, later when challenges arise. It was awesome to have been able to meet and fall in love with someone surrounded by all of your virtual and real friends. My IRL friends were actually among the last to learn of us dating, getting engaged and having a baby. Our coupling was a result of the friendship we made here in cyberland and thus shared most openly with our cyber/real friends. It's a double-edged sword though. Our natural outlet for help with issues would again be those who knew us best which in many instances were our cyberfriends. However, as I've noticed on many a blog or post, it's much easier to ask for help or discuss relationship problems when your friends dont know your spouse so well. It's a lot harder when they know you equally or anything positive or negative you might have to say would be viewed equally by all. I tend to care too much what people think about me or of me and that keeps me from being completely open and honest at times as I'm sure is a trait that many of us share. I'm learning to let go of that and realize that it's most important what my wife and family think of me and they are the ones I should try to impress daily.

I love them so dearly and even though we have our trials and tribulations as do all, I'll always be there standing beside and behind my family.